I know I should update yesterday.. but I felt too tired TvT .. ohooo~ and guess what.. I woke at 3.30 yesterday.. whoot.. Can't blame myself for being that tired...
Why am I tired? because I have gone out on 131217 .. hang out with my dearest bestfriends.. dearest group of mine.. There are 6 of us.. me, nida,myra,nini, man and azan.. heh.. yeah.. bloggie should know them by now, right? they are all my bestfriends since my middle school~ ..
first game
second game
Here what we do first.... Bowling time.. the place where the boys and girls get excited ... ;) I bet bloggie must searching for my name there.. but yeah~ I'm not there.. I shared place with nida.. because I kinda saving money for my owns.. Why? I will tell you after this... :) .. I know nida name was in last place for both game.. jyeah.. I know.. because I don't even have interesting to play that day.. with my both hand were still in pain because of the education fair before.. it's a relief when I heard myra's hands were now okay and she can play the bowling by herself.. well, we enjoy actually ... enjoy because of the games.. screaming .. smiling .. after that .. we went to watch movie..
It's THE HOBBIT.. :) and it's 3D.. actually, I don't even have interest in watching this movie.. and also myra .. cause myra want to watch the THOR.. but the thor started at 5 p.m.... it's already late for us.. so we decide to watch this.. :D.. at the bowling section, myra, nida and nini planned to make me and man sit next to each other.. but i denied it! ughh! they know how awkward i am with him.. and now they want to make us talk like before.. hell no! .. why would I !.... but seriously bloggie.. I am much quiet than I am when I with him.. no talking like before.. no eye contact and not even have topic to say.... that's how awkward we are.. but what to do... he no longer care for that.. he just have his girlfriend in his mind :D.. yeah.. it's true.. what could I say.. and I don't even care for him ..
oh.. back to the movie.... I sat between azan and nida.. and I was freaking them freezing in the movie... I don't know that it will be that cold.. shoot! how can I forgot to bring my sweater and wear only thin cloths.. ughh! I'm not even pay attention for the movie.. I often took of my 3D glass and just stare at my hand blankly.. I don't know what happen to me.. nothing playing in my mind.... nothing even pop in.. I just can't take my eyes longer using the 3D because .. yeah.. my eyes are not in good condition either.. xD..
I started to get hungry as we get out from the cinema.. and yeahh.. just me and nida only eat while the others wait for us.... What to say.. I'm not eating either breakfast and lunch and we just freaking eat by 5.pm in the evening.. that the only meal that I have on that whole day.. We bid a goodbye with both of the guys and when to the 2nd floor where the arcade were! Guess what.. nida and I decide to play the game that we both love so much.. xD .. altough we know we just had such fun xD.... end with the games.. we when to the new block of ioi and follow nida to buy some clothes.. whoo~ nini and I waited for so long for her to pick up clothes with myra help.. -.- curse the time.. we went back safe with nini's driving and we arrive on 6.30.. that's the day where I spent a long time for hang out in my entire life! :) .. I know bloggie must want to know what happen for the both guys.. but I think I don't want to tell.. because that's not important for me.. :D
Hmm.. bloggie. .. talk about saving money.. you want to know something? I don't have any money left either than my owns now.. my mum doesn't even give me any money for me to hang out .. hmphh.. I guess I need to save some .. need to go to vietnam this 22.. but I have no feeling of going there.. with all his family .. ughhhhhhhhhhh.. whatever..
bloggie.. I don't know what to say.. I thought that the case have just end .. but he said to my mum that he got a dream last night.. I was nervous when my mum said that she want to tell me a story when she get back.. I know something ain't right.. and yet it's true! .. hmm.. I don't believe any of what he told my mum.. I don't believe it he can dream such things.. I know Allah may the one who powerful.. I know .. Ya Allah.. if he is true.. let me dream the same things that he dreams of.... let me have some facts that the dreams were true.... I dont' blame the one who he suspected.. I don't blame her because she is my bestfriend.. I dont' want to believe it.. but if it's true.. I felt betrayed.. I felt stupid and I will hurts.. who should I believe now?? O Allah.. please help me.. :'( I want to cry when my mum tell me the story.. I even text my friend.. and here what she said..
now only Cham knows the truth.. I don't have any place to tell anymore.. no one will accept this things too.. I don't want anyone to think bad about my friends.. see.. Cham also agree with me.. she also doesn't believe that person would do such things... Arghh!! please.. I need to stop this feeling.. I'm getting stress with all of this.... why must everything be like this when I have my own bestfriends? why ?? I need them .. I love my bestfriends and I believe in them.. Why do he want to break my friendship? ; u ; .. I hate it! seriously.. If I were not here.. I think he will happy .. right? then I will be going.. I will spent my time at plkn.. I will be happy there... and I will not be here.. that's what he want.. that's what everyone want it ! .. I know this things will happen.... I will not regret all my actions.. I will not ! .. Don't blame me if he will be down after this..
I need to sleep now.. stop my mind from thinking about this stupid shit ! ..
Mr.Yehet :) Oh Sehun
with love : baby wolf
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